Guilty as Charged

Well, my ass is grass.
I got into some trouble with my parents. Basically I was caught about something a lot of teenagers wouldn't like their parents to find out about, and I'm in some trouble.
The Verdict:
can't go anywhere except work for a week
after the week is over, can't go anywhere at night for a month
no car except to go to work for a month.

It's not as bad as some people would get, but I'm also being punished another way. I'm on a huge guilt trip about all of this. My parents have been really cool with me my whole life, they've handed me what I want and they always told me that if I wanted to drink I could in the house. They've put a lot of trust in me and I've totally blown it away. I feel like a little peice of shit. I feel like lower than shit. Whatever that is. Maybe I'm the rat that eats the shit in the sewer. Ew, I don't know.

I'm trying what I can to get them to trust me again. It'll take some time, but I'm trying.
I've asked my manager to schedule me to work a lot this week, since there is nothing to do at the house since I can't go anywhere.

Oh well, I deserve it for being a shit. Or a rat.
AGH the guilt is the worst. And some of you might think that I'm being a retarted little panzie about this, but if you had parents like I did and you broke the trust, you'd feel as bad as I do too.
Damn.


PS- I've been listening to a lot of this lately! :



The Blood Brothers
Crimes


I just haven't listened to it in awhile and it's great.